“I prescribed you a medicine. Take this medicine only when the symptoms appear.” I nodded, took the prescription, and went to the pharmacy. There was a time. A time when the voices in my head get louder and louder. And louder. And way louder until it drowns the uproar that…

a confusion that started with one question — When you move to another city, one of the common question people will ask you is, “Where do you come from?”. As someone who just moved to another city, of course I get that question quite often. But lately, I found myself always have a pause for a few seconds…

what I did to face the heartbreak — Heartbreak is never easy. Sometimes, I think the term heartbreak doesn’t suit the pain at all. Because sometimes your heart isn’t just break into a half, sometimes it’s shattered to pieces until its form is unrecognized, broken beyond repair, and the damage probably did something to your soul. …

about a concerned friend, the new city, and a canon event — On one day, where I didn’t have to trapped in Jakarta’s traffic, I decided to spent my day off in hermit mode. I spent a whole day holed up in my room. Busy scrolling, reading, watching movies, and listening to music while imagining some silly scenarios based on the song…

untuk A di G, selamat ulang tahun — selamat ulang tahun apa yang bertambah selain usiamu yang sesungguhnya berkurang? apa rumahmu bertambah asing meski sudah kau diami? apa rasa kesal yang tertuju pada ayahmu bertambah? apa jumlah wanita yang kau permainkan juga sudah bertambah? nampaknya rasa bersalah tidak pernah membelenggumu sehingga bertambah ringanlah tungkaimu melangkah. . selamat ulang…

Let’s face it: TransJakarta is far from perfect. Its braking is fraught — a real-life example of Newton’s Law I. The route changes. Its buses are still short in numbers. Sometimes you have to wait for a long time for the bus to arrive, etc. The addition to that is…

I’m bound to random talk with my friends. Sometimes the lame jokes fill. So that the talk about mundane things or existential crisis does not drain our energy. One day, I had that random talk with my friend. We talked about the usual; our favorite series, discussing what series I…

it’s been…a month??!! — It’s been a month since I started a new life in this big city. I believe that the first time I arrived in Jakarta, I looked like someone who was lost. Well, I still am, I guess. I’m the embodiment of a misfit puzzle piece. I don’t really belong here. …

“Harusnya isi kepala itu ada saklarnya, kan?” aku berujar. Menatap lurus matanya. Sosoknya masih bergeming di seberang. Kuhela napas sambil menengadahkan kepala. Langit-langit ruangan terasa sama. Langit betulan di luar juga; kusam, pucat, punya sedih yang banyak. “Kan nanti jadi lebih mudah. Kalau berisik, tekan saja saklarnya lalu klik! Sunyi…